I also needed to take a break from it to find out how I feel about it these days. Kind of like breaking up with your seventh grade boyfriend just to see if you miss sitting beside him at lunch every day. Do I still like blogging, circle yes or no.
I started blogging four years ago to have an outlet for all of those things that roll around in my head. It was also a way to develop the habit of writing every day, which is an important thing to do if you ever plan to write a book. Which I do. Someday, after nursing old folks and putting my child through college, I plan to take out that folder of notes I've been saving and bring to life those characters floating around in my head. I have already named them and given them certain traits. I even know how I want at least one of them to develop. The manuscript doesn't have to get published. I just want to bring a dream to life.
But someday is not tomorrow or the day after, and in the meantime, the routine of writing daily without some kind of conclusion in sight was becoming a bit of a grind. And in the meantime, life holds other joys I want to fully explore, like photography. Truthfully, I was finding it harder and harder to blog regularly. So I took a little break. And I've come to the decision that I don't know how much longer I will continue to blog. It will certainly be less regular than it has in the past. I am not going to feel committed to writing every day.
It's a part of an overall effort to take some control over the "busy-ness" in my life and make my family and my serenity a priority. I am purposefully shedding some responsibilities in all areas of my life. I am saying "no", and I mean it. I roll off my committee assignments at church at the end of the year, and I've asked to be taken off a civic board a year early, in January. I've been on that board for five years, and it's time for someone else to step up. That means I will hold no volunteer leadership positions for the next year. For twelve months, I will do what a lot of other folks do, I will simply show up and enjoy the fruits of someone else's leadership and labor. I will help Hubby take care of his dad, I will nurture Teen Angel into adulthood and I will enjoy some free time. And I won't feel guilty about it.
I will blog from time to time, but only when I feel like it. I will post as the mood hits me, and I will use some of the time I've gained to savor some "me" time. "Me" meaning family. I may actually watch a little television--if Dish Network quits breaking up with channels I love. I will read more, and I will definitely take more pictures. I hope you will continue to join me. I have missed you, my blogging friends.